Yoli's World

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

My fears and insecurities

Hi my name is Yoliswa Mawela I just got accepted into the scholarship internship programme. I have been nervous since I started applying for the internship programme, probably because I knew that this is one step for me through the world of work. The whole week has been filled with anxiety and nerve wrecking moments because of the interview I had to attend in order for me to be awarded the the scholarship training. Since the beginning of the week I have been doubting my abilities because of high standards and requirements of the internship.

The required tasks were were supposed to be accurate and very proffessional. Lesley Emanuel, my mentor demands professionalism at avery aspect of the programme. This is one of the factors that forced me to realize that, she meant serious bussiness by demanding accuracy and professionalism. That made me realize that in the world of employment there is no playing and lazying around.

My fear in the internship training is that I won't be able to excel in the tasks that I will be given to perform. I also fear that I won't be able to measure up to the standard that has been set for the trainees. I further hope that I am not the only one who is suffering from insecurities that I just described. Hopefully I will get the support that I need from Lesley and fellow trainees.


  • At 11:18 PM, Blogger Celeste said…

    Welcome Yoliswa. And well done with the scholarship programme. It looks like you had nothing to worry about in the first place. All I can say is that you've put down in words how most of us feel about the programme. On the one hand I'm petrified of not being able to handle the course, but on the other I know this is the way forward. After this course we'll be confident enough to not worry about our abilities in the work place. I'm anxious about next week but at least I'm not alone in this experience. I'm very excited to meet you and the rest of the trainees. See you soon. Celeste

  • At 12:31 AM, Blogger Psychewellbeing said…

    Hello Yoliswa. We are on the same boat.It is true, the programme sounds very serious. I for one cannot afford to mess anything. I am sure everyone feels the same way. See you next week.

  • At 12:38 AM, Blogger Roy Blumenthal said…

    Hiya Guys...

    Firstly... congrats on getting the scholarship!

    Secondly... congrats on setting up your blog!

    Thirdly... you'll see when the course starts that it is one enormous amount of fun!!! Nothing to be scared of. I've taught on the program for the last four or five years, and the students have all had the best times.

    I assure you, it's only scary now, cos it feels like such a huge field. You're gonna love it.

    Blue skies

  • At 2:31 AM, Blogger zanele said…

    Hi Yoliswa,nice meeting you. I think we all feel the same way about this programm,at the same time we all looking forward to the demanding and exciting experience of the world work.I'm happy for you that you have been accepted in this programme,although you have missed a nice lunch Lesley organised for us on our first meeting.Well lets hope we will have a closing lunch so that you can attend.

  • At 9:48 AM, Blogger Nefeli said…

    Hello Yoliswa. I'm a past intern. I went through the programme in 2003 and it really was an amazing and growing experience. I think it's pretty normal to be nervous, but you must remember that you have made it through a stressful process and it was decided that you are worthy of getting the scholarship, which means that although you may doubt your ability, there are others who believe in you. Don't forget that, you will manage.

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  • At 3:24 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Russia - forever!



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